♫♪ SONGS of my HEART! ♪♫

What songs are on your playlist? Or should I ask, what were the songs that best describes how and what you feel and the significance of that particular song in your heart? To give you a sample of it, let me share you my own personal choice of songs and their significance in my life!

TERRIFIED by Katherine McPhee and Jason Reeves

- I first heard this song when my brother played it in our computer, when I had my turn to use our computer, I kept on playing it over and over again till I get to memorized the chorus part. Then it suddenly pops out on my mind that this song is intended for the one who tickles my heart. So I shared it in Facebook, I remember my Besty Sheena commented and she wrote: InLove kana naman! And she’s right, I am in love with that person up until now.. 

♪And I’m inlove and I’m..I’m terrified..Lalalalalalala♫ 

KEY TO MY HEART by Jessica Jarrel

- The title says it all, Yes! coz though it is almost 2 years from the time I felt that I like him and we’ve been apart, He’s still the one who holds my heart. The chorus part best explains why I like this song so much, it goes like this:

♫But I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart♪

It has always been my apprehension whenever I like someone that if they got to know my feelings for them,  either they will ignore me or they will stay as my friends. Base on my experience, they IGNORE! =( this is a sad truth that I often have to bear and will let my question WHY left unanswered.

SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD by Barry Manilow  revived by Nina

- I believe that we meet someone along our journey, we don’t know if that person will stay or not in our lives but somehow it has a purpose why we meet them somewhere down the road. And for me that happened, I met someone who changed my outlook in life, we became friends, and with no intention of falling in love, I did! We parted ways; I never get to see him till now. It may not have been too long for us to be together but I knew in my heart that someday our roads will cross again. Here’s a few lines of the chorus part:

♫But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when♪

WITHOUT YOU by Charlie Wilson

- I’ve always love this song. For me, who was able to love but not love in return wish to be remembered by that someone who once became so special and dear to me. The lyrics on the chorus part that says:

♫Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right
Now you’re so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I’ll always stay♪

“I hope and I pray somewhere in your heart I’ll always stay” If by any chance that I don’t get the chance to see him again, I hope that Somehow I was able to leave a mark in his life that He’ll never forget me and that I’ll always have a place in his heart like he is to me.

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY by Natalie Cole

- During the time when my mind is in confusion and I was totally depressed and devastated because I had problems in my work, the thought of I won’t be seeing him anymore everyday really kills me and that makes me miss him so much! So whenever I have the chance to sing in a videoke, I sing this song to somehow alleviate the pain of missing him!

IF EVER YOU’RE IN MY ARMS AGAIN by Peaboh Bryson

YOU’LL BE IN MY HEART by Phil Collins

- These 2 old songs were very significant to me because  when I used to see him, I was able to hold and use his phone for sound purposes. And these 2 songs were in his playlist. We even sang these songs together.

BEST THING I NEVER HAD by Beyonce

- I love Beyonce’s songs; one of them is this one best thing you never had. I’ve wanted to prove myself and let the other person see that I’m the BEST person that He’ll never have because he let me go. It may sound I’m bitter, but it’s true. It just goes to show how regretful he will be for not giving importance to the love I gave him that no matter how he wanted to have me back, I’m already over him! –I know this won’t happen, but at least I was able to express my bitterness, if ever! 

 ♫I wanted you bad,
I'm so through with it,
'Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had,
You turned out to be the best thing I never had,
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had,
Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now!♪ 

CHASING PAVEMENTS by Adele

- I learned this song from my brother and cousins, and though I’m not really familiar how good and famous Adele was, I just love the song and the lyrics in it.. The chorus part was very easy to memorize:

♫Should I give up or Should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up or Should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?♪

This has been a question on my mind, Should I really give up, now????

 

ART OF LETTING GO by Mikaila

- It may sound cliché but you will all agree with me that LETTING GO is hard! Very hard, especially for those who love and have given their best to show how much they love the other person. Whenever I hear this song, there’s a part of me that I wanted to let go of the feelings and the person whom I am in love with. On the other hand, a part of me still wanted to hold on. I know that every single/in a relationship/married boy/girl who have been in this situation have the same dilemma. In my case, I love the person but the person doesn’t love me in return. It may seem easy to let go but for me who has been longing for someone who’ll love me in return, letting go is really hard. Learning to let go of one person close to your heart is not that easy to do, it takes time, you have to go through the process for you to be able to accept that not everything you wish and hope for will eventually come true. Going through the art of letting go is a learning experience, thus, its part of one’s life. It only helps you to grow bolder and braver. It lets you become stronger, so the next time you fall in love, you may be hurt but at least you know that you’re strong enough to let go! 

♫Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.♪

ALMOST by TAMIA

- I dedicate this song to my ex papsy A. Why? because I knew in my heart that we ALMOST had each other. He is the only one among the 3 men who I fell in love with who did not ignore me. Instead, he showed me that he also cares for me. We had the best memories that I’ll cherish for the rest of my life. We understand each other, we compromise, and we give each other advices. He trusted me with his innermost thoughts, problems and all. We became good friends, it’s just that we were not meant to be together because at the time that we get close, he’s already in a relationship and his girlfriend is on her way for their first child! The sad thing is we didn’t have any closure, all I remember is the last time he texted me he asked me if I do still have feelings for him I replied and said. It’s all in the past, I’m happy for what we are today, friends! He never replied anymore, that was the last time. It just makes me sad that He didn’t even give me the chance to explain my side. I said that because He already has his child, though I know He’s having feelings for me, the fact that he and his girlfriend are trying to build their family, I assumed, I don’t want to ruin or be the reason of their failed relationship. I have my values and I’d rather be the one bearing the pain than to let that innocent being suffer.  I don’t have any regrets with my decision; I know it’s for the both of us!

GOD BLESS THE BROKEN ROAD by Rascal Flatts

 - I first heard this song when Kris Aquino’s album was launched in ASAP, it was Toni Gonzaga who rendered the song. I like it because it gives me hope that God is writing my love story, with all the frustrations, pain and tears that I’ve gone through and no matter how rocky and bumpy the road I have been, God will bless the road and He will reveal the MAN who will take away all my fears, make all my shattered dreams into reality and will love me truly and unconditionally! Here’s the chorus part:

♫ Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you♪ 

MARRY YOUR DAUGHTER by Brian McKnight

- Everyone will agree on me that every Father wants their daughter to have and marry someone who will love, respect, care, and will treat their princess like a queen. Right? I bet my Dad is one of them. Unfortunately, He already passed away. =( I chose and love this song because I still want my soon to be boyfriend who will eventually propose to me will still ask for my Dad’s approval, I don’t know how, but if he wants to, he will. Right?  Whoever you are, I already gave you pointers on how you will pursue me and get my 100% Yes. It’s just up to you how you’re gonna do it! 

♫Can marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'til the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter♪ 

BEAUTIFUL DAYS by Kyla
- If I’m not mistaken, Kyla wrote this song for their wedding. I find it very nice and well executed. I love every word that is written on it. It' has been every girls dream to someday get marry and finally say her I do's to the Man he choose to love and be with forever. In short, I want this song to be played on my wedding day! I don’t know when is it going to happen and who will be the MAN who will be walking down the aisle with me, but one thing is certain, I’m looking forward for forever beautiful days that I’ll be spending it with you!

♪ I see beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
You’ve touched my heart so deeply
And I can’t thank God enough
For all the beautiful days with you
I feel beautiful ways of loving you
Everything is just so wonderful
Every little thing is just so beautiful
When I spend it with you..♪

We all have our favorite songs that we wanted to be played and heard whenever we feel like being sentimental or the so-called emo moments! We give pleasure to ourselves to somehow make us feel relax and stress free even just for an hour or two. It soothes our mind when we feel like we just had a bad day. There were times that we just want to reminisce those good old days that we had with the person we dedicated the song with. In addition, we just want to embrace the thought of missing the person that we held in our hearts for so long. For me, each song that I included in my playlist has their own set of stories and meaning in my life. I put them as a reminder of that special person who once and still a very important person in my life!

A DECADE AFTER with DABERKADZ!

Our group name was originally from the word Dabarkads which was popularized by the number one noontime show Eat Bulaga. One of us started pronouncing it as “da ber” instead of “da bar” that's why we come up to DABERKADZ!

Abigaile – skinny, cute.She’s the adventurous if I may say among all of us. She’s very outgoing and loves to experience things on her way. Career Woman. In a relationship with Tim., plans to settle down not later than 5 years from now, she said!

Alena-  extrovert and very girly. She’s a loving wife to Errol and a loving mom to their son Lian. Errol and Alena are working very hard for the future of their family.

Cristine- convivial and sexy. She’s married to Prunz and mommy of their 2 beautiful daughters Reign and Aviel. She’s actually the most “kikay” among all of us and now she’s doing her best in her new found career, a 24/7 mom and a loving wife!

Eunice- petite, achiever. Yes! She is indeed the “BRAINY” of our group! I know that none of us will object with regard to this. She’s happily fulfilling her dreams. In a relationship with Jhune., and plans to settle down after I get married.Lol

Nissiel- fighter, frank. She cooks good food, very dependable. Mommy of Abby and a Loving wife to Jonald. She’s happy and fulfilled being a 24/7 mom and a supportive wife. Plans to have another baby for Abby to be an ate na!

Pamela- gorgeous! Yes! I claimed to be and because they are my friends they support me! Lol Someday, I’ll be able to achieve my goals in life. I’m a certified NBSB and I fervently hope that someone will break this label soon!

Our group was formerly consists of 7 smart, pretty, witty, intelligent, friendly, responsible, loving and caring ladies.  But due to uncontrollable circumstances, only 6 remained. 

Our Story..

We actually came from different set of groupings on our P.E class during our freshmen year in college. Then we suddenly became comfortable with each other and have built a good chemistry towards one another.  We easily get along well, we jive and we enjoyed each other’s company. Each of our personalities complements with one another. We respect one’s beliefs/cultures/religions as well our own set of opinions.  As time goes by; our group was not merely just a group but rather a friendship that was built by acceptance/trust/loyalty/understanding/comfort and most of all love.. 

Back when we were in college, we spend most of our time being together. We study we learn. We share answers, we back up each other!  We eat we gain weight! We were hurt we comforted one another. We had problems we helped each other. We cry we laugh! All these things happened in the four corners of our classroom that somehow help us to become more mature individuals as we face our everyday lives. I believe that this made our friendship more closely. 
But then again, there are things which are not beyond our control; Alena and Nissiel have to stop and left schooling due to their personal reasons. Abigaile also left school but came back a year after. So Cristine, Eunice, MayPearl and Me stayed and have to bear with the adjustments that we have to finish until the end of our course. But there are circumstances that don’t go our way. We have been tested; we even came to a point that we have to be divided for quite some time. It was the most difficult time on our friendship. Maypearl chose to be on her own. That’s the reason why only 6 remained. The 6 of us chose to renew the friendship, to strengthen the bond and continue the relationship of being friends. I must say that if there’s one thing that truly described our friendship is LOYALTY! We all learned from that conflict/misunderstanding/mistake call it whatever, but we knew in our hearts that Daberkadz will live and the 6  of us will not give up on it! Tin, Nice and I soon graduated; we completed our course with flying colors, 6 months after, Abigaile also graduated! We share this victory with our fellow Daberkadz Alena and Nissiel. I know that they were also proud of us!

After graduation, we have been apart for quite some time because we have to face the real world as adults. We had our struggling moments but we were able to overcome because though we are not seeing each other as often as we want, we were able to comfort, help and show our love for one another. We became each other’s strengths so we can achieve our goals in life. 

The following photos are manifestations of our friendship that though we have been separated by time apart and schedule, we still manage to see each other especially during fiesta or on our birthdays.

The above photos were taken during fiesta of 2007 and 2008. It was on 2008 that finally we were able to be completed again after several months of being apart after we graduated.

While in these photos, on the left was Eunice's birthday March of 2008 and on the right was Cristine's birthday August of 2008.

This photo was taken during our one summer outing at Villa Antonina on March 22, 2008

Fast forward, Alena, Nissiel and Cristine are now married with their chosen partners in life. Without a doubt, they were executing the best roles of their lives as housewives and moms. We all know that being a mother is a tough job; no amount of salary can compensate the happiness that they gain from their children. And as for their husbands, Errol, Jonald and Prunz, they have been a great provider, good father and a loving husband to their wives. I salute you all for a job well done!

 

This photo was taken during our visit to Tin when she first gave birth to her first born Reign. Along with us are Alena's son Lian and Nissiel's daughter Abby. 

The following photos below are their Family Pictures: (photo credits from them, Thank You!)

David Family
Daddy Errol+Mommy Alena=Lian Kyle

Coronel Family
Daddy Jonald+Mommy Nissiel=Abby

Yao Family

Daddy Joseph+Mommy Cristine=Reign Audree and Riane Aviel  

While Eunice and Abigaile, as I’ve said, they are happily in a relationship right now with their boyfriends, as time passes by, I believe that someday the 2 of them will eventually settle down too, I will never know, maybe in 2 years’ time. They’ve been working very hard to fulfill their dreams and accomplish their goals for their family and for their future plans ahead. Oh well, as I described myself earlier, I’ve never been into any relationship, BUT, my heart is taken by someone I can't call as my own now, my Daberkadz know that and again because they are my friends they support me and accept my craziness when it comes to love. I know that what they only want and wish for me is to meet that someone who will love me truly and will make me happy completely! And as for me, I will fulfill my goals in life too. 

This one is for the 3 of us who hasn't been married yet. The 2 right there on the upper left side is Abigaile with her boyfriend Tim. Meanwhile, the other 2 on the right side is Eunice with her boyfriend Jhune. Lastly, the 2 on the middle is Me and the "one" who has my heart.
(malakas loob ko na ilagay xa dito kse hindi nman nya makikita to..hahaha) but we'll never know baka may iba pla, pwedi naman palitan pag nangyari yon!

These 2 photos were taken during our post Christmas gatherings, the one on the left was taken on December 30, 2009 and on the right was taken on December 26, 2010

Here is our last get together, during our visit to Tin as she gave birth to her 2nd daughter Aviel.

I've always been proud and even prouder now to belong in this kind of camaraderie. We've been through the good and bad times, we've shared our laughter's  as well our tears. We've been through the hardest and we become the toughest! and yes! we're still we! I'm certain that whatever life takes us, we're strong enough to face them! As we celebrate our 10th year this June, my prayer will be for us to have a healthy life, happy relationship with our loved ones, success in our future endeavors, more bondings/get together, and that may we all live a happy and contented life! I pray that our friendship will go not just for a decade but for many many more years of fruitful togetherness and happiness!

It has been a wonderful journey for Daberkadz, a journey that made us who we are today, a journey that taught us to be stronger, braver and bolder in facing life’s challenges. I believe that this journey has a long way to go, but with God as our strong foundation, we will be able to succeed!

Allow me to thank all of you guyz for being so patient with me, for bringing out the best in me despite my frustrations and failures in life. For supporting me with all my decisions. For being there for me despite the distance and time apart. For giving me courage and for understanding my flaws and weaknesses. Most of all, for loving me and accepting me for who and what I am.

If I were to be asked one of the most memorable thing that ever happened to me when I was in college, I will definitely say, when I met my DABERKADZ! we may not be perfect but we're REAL!